To Jennifer
Not her real name
The most unpopular girl in school
The girl everyone picked on
The one with the horrible nickname
The one with poor dress sense and worse skin
Ridiculous high heels
And ill-fitting clothes
Lipstick that was all wrong
About who’s home life we knew nothing
and cared less
Who made bad choices
But we all felt entitled to judge and shame
Including me
I never bullied her
I doubt she would even knew my name
But I remember her
And her nickname
The cruelty of that name and of children
Girls who wanted nothing to do with her
Lest unpopularity was catching
It was
The boys who name called and bullied her
Not me,
But then doing nothing is also taking a side
And when some boy wanted to lose his virginity
She was there
Desperate for someone to like her
Maybe thinking that at last this was affection
And immediately being rejected
Pregnant at 16
And how many of my classmates thought,
“damn, I wish I’d thought of that”
“Free pussy in the alum”
It was not
But it is still cause for shame
The same shame of not even knowing her full name
To try and look her up
To see how 40 years had treated her
To see how men had treated her
Because I’m sure that was just the start
Its not all men
The fuck it’s not
The onus is on us to prove worthy of that phrase
The inherent violence of the male gaze
That we seem incapable of controlling
A predator until proven otherwise
Because it is all women
And we collectively deserve the shame
and the guilt until we put it right
Until we put a stop to the Epstein culture
that we have created and tolerate
To all the Jennifers
The woman who we have failed
The woman who I have failed
One way or another
I’m sorry
I will do better.
“Free Pussy in the alum (pop up)
“This is crazy work”
“Free…”
“Diego went 7 mins ago and is not (away from keyboard)”
“I fucking love Chi Phi”
“CHI PHIII”
“The alumni shit is not a bit. First person POV not a bit.”
“Like you can walk in and whip it out”
“Free Pussy in the alum (pop up)
“This is crazy work”
“Free…”
“Diego went 7 mins ago and is not (away from keyboard)”
“I fucking love Chi Phi”
“CHI PHIII”
“The alumni shit is not a bit. First person POV not a bit.”
“Like you can walk in and whip it out”
“Free Pussy in the alum (pop up)
“This is crazy work”
“Free…”
“Diego went 7 mins ago and is not (away from keyboard)”
“I fucking love Chi Phi”
“CHI PHIII”
“The alumni shit is not a bit. First person POV not a bit.”
“Like you can walk in and whip it out”
“Free Pussy in the alum (pop up)
“This is crazy work”
“Free…”
“Diego went 7 mins ago and is not (away from keyboard)”
“I fucking love Chi Phi”
“CHI PHIII”
“The alumni shit is not a bit. First person POV not a bit.”
“Like you can walk in and whip it out”“Free Pussy in the alum (pop up)
“This is crazy work”
“Free…”
“Diego went 7 mins ago and is not (away from keyboard)”
“I fucking love Chi Phi”
“CHI PHIII”
“The alumni shit is not a bit. First person POV not a bit.”
“Like you can walk in and whip it out”
“Free Pussy in the alum (pop up)
“This is crazy work”
“Free…”
“Diego went 7 mins ago and is not (away from keyboard)”
“I fucking love Chi Phi”
“CHI PHIII”
“The alumni shit is not a bit. First person POV not a bit.”
“Like you can walk in and whip it out”“Free Pussy in the alum (pop up)
“This is crazy work”
“Free…”
“Diego went 7 mins ago and is not (away from keyboard)”
“I fucking love Chi Phi”
“CHI PHIII”
“The alumni shit is not a bit. First person POV not a bit.”
“Like you can walk in and whip it out”
“Free Pussy in the alum (pop up)
“This is crazy work”
“Free…”
“Diego went 7 mins ago and is not (away from keyboard)”
“I fucking love Chi Phi”
“CHI PHIII”
“The alumni shit is not a bit. First person POV not a bit.”
“Like you can walk in and whip it out”
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